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looking for that sincere smile

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 05:22:47 GMT

I need to straighten out everything in my life

I think I have turn into a different person, even I am not happy with

Don't know where to start looking

Don't know how to put logic into my emotion

Blogging has been a part of me since I left high school, yet lately I can't find it in me to be here anymore. I have not log in to Xanga for a nearly 2 months. Believe it or not, I haven't really cam whore in a long time too. Some thing is not right... Nothing feels right anymore.

Friday, September 04, 2009

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 04:46:41 GMT

We often try to make people understand or accept the reasons (or excuses) behind their actions or decisions for the things we have done, but we can't understand or accept other people's actions or decisions.

Until and unless we have been through the exact situation, we would never fully understand why people make the choices they do, the mistakes they did, or the complication they've caused. Most of us don't mean it, but shit happens and none of us are perfect.

Its hard to know for sure how much a person regrets their action or how true and real is their words. The questions lies within the people affected on how much they want to believe and how much fate they want to hold on to. They need to know what exactly causes them to feel uncomfortable and know if they can move forward from there on.

Let whoever have no sin, cast the first stone...

think happy thoughts...

Tue, 14 Jul 2009 09:54:56 GMT

I think I might be undergoing depression

Wed, 08 Jul 2009 10:58:09 GMT

I lost all interest in anything that I use to have interest in. I seem to be demotivated at anything I do. I can't seem to find happiness in living, in all aspects of living. I haven't gone home in ages. I feel extremely lethargic.

Food doesn't appeal much to me. Camwhoring doesn't appeal much to me. I haven't blog in the longest time. Hack! I haven't really been online! Facebook is just a place to park myself as a concious effort that I'm not that lost. Housework is piling up. I'm not even following my Gilmore Girls or One Tree Hill (following series is my most addictive past time after surfing the internet)

I hate living alone.

3 months....

an example of optimism

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 04:37:44 GMT

1. I'll be emotionally stronger aka no more (or should I say less) emotionally dependent

2. I get to loose weight without forcing myself on a diet

3. More time to focus on other things like work and friends

4. More time to do housework, read a book (ha ha!), catch up on tv series and bla bla bla..

but it doesn't change the fact of how I feel

I gave PaPa Bear your tee so I can hug you to sleep =)

idiots roam the world

Tue, 19 May 2009 06:01:40 GMT

Some people are born idiots..

They insist my name is Winnie and when I correct them by telling them "It is actually pronounce as Winne" then they say "Can I talk to Winnie then?"

Stupid retarded morons

the unexplainable

Sun, 17 May 2009 09:32:04 GMT

dub dub dub di dum di di di dumm...

i love seeing my boyfriend at work. the amount of concentration he puts in and the (very rare) times he looks up to me and give me that cheeky wink. The dedication he puts into his artwork. He is very much still young at heart, so am I. Our different worlds is not going to stop me from loving him more.

...di di dum duum... di dum di dum

blogging is a chore

Wed, 13 May 2009 10:49:27 GMT

I lost the passion to blog. It has become the once in a blue updates or just some random thoughts. For years now I have been rather careful of what I write here cause I know how public this site is. (Welcome boss! ) The ten thousand times I contemplated having a new blog site, but after a while, I lost the mood to pursue it and it has just remain as a dust at the back of my mind.

There really isn't much to update here. My life is pretty mundane. Wake up, go to work, go home, sleep. I just got my hands on Season 1 & 2 of Gilmore Girls! So I guess I'll be watching one episode a night, hopefully I be a good girl and not watch more than that. he he..

Actually I had some on and off inspiration to blog about something but somehow the mood left me when I sit in front of the computer.

Pris just celebrated her 21st birthday recently. Its quite scary cause it means I am not young anymore. (Next year it is Lynne's turn!) Time does really fly pass when I entered the working world. I've already started to loose track on when I graduated from INTI. I won't deny that part of me is eager to move on to the next phase in life, but no I am not crazy enough to jump into anything that comes by.

On a separate topic, I just attempted purchasing items from LovingMinerals. =D That is how mundane my life is that I have resorted to online shopping.

I'm craving for a summer vacation...

Birthday People

Fri, 01 May 2009 15:45:19 GMT

Shanti's

Last weekend Nikki organize an awesome surprise party for Shanti @ DAJ.

Victor's

A special day for my special someone.

Sorry dear, I was too busy with work and being sick. Hope you still love it all! *hugs & kisses*

*aiks* too many birthdays in such a close time!!

I would also like to specially wish CASEY CHONG HO SHEAS a HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!! *hugs* Sorry dear, can't celebrate with you this year. Hope you still had an awesome time without me by your side hehe...

Congratulations!

Fri, 01 May 2009 15:36:13 GMT

Congrats to Joanne & William!

I bought this dress when I was 16 years old... kept it for years in hope that one day I could fit into it again... and now I can! ;)