Monday, 08 August 2011

  • stopping by

    I've been blog surfing for nearly a year now and yet I still find myself most comfortable with Xanga. They say home is where the heart is, I guess I feel at 'home' with Xanga. I don't really know if I want to be in Xanga, but I think I need to blog.

    This morning I had an inspiration to write a whole long blog entry. I wrote down the whole entry mentally in my mind, but it disappear as soon as I am done writing it. I've lost my ability to just ramble on and on about something.

    So much has happen and change in the past one year. And right now I find myself in a place so familiar and yet so strange.

    I don't know if I should feel happy or sad with everything that is going on. Yes, some parts of it I appreciate a lot. Some other parts, makes me question even more. Inside my head it doesn't look pretty. The mess & twist of thoughts, just makes thing worst. I have myself to blame for half of the unhappiness I have right now.

    I miss feeling happy, contentment, waking up in the morning and knowing everything is going to be great no matter what the outcome.

Sunday, 07 November 2010

  • it all started from natural goodness

    I recently been hearing more about natural products for personal care use especially for skin. 2 of my good friends started venturing into this industry. At first I thought what is the big fuss with paying over price products when I can get it for so much cheaper of the rack? Then last night, for the first time I use the soaps and oh man, I think I've never felt so clean!! I actually love it!

    Makes me wonder, all the products in the supermarket, could it be the chemical in those product that first got my face to be 'worst'. I remember before I started using any products my skin was much better condition, and now I am trying to rely on all this marketed products but still I need to change products cause when my skin get accustome to it, it just turns bad again.

    So, perhaps this natural goodness is good for me, in fact good for all. I honestly don't mind paying slightly more for something good.



    Sweet Summer Cottage Handmade Soap






Wednesday, 03 November 2010

  • something different

    For years I have not kept a fringe so short, and I've been wandering how I would look like with one. The look I was going for is:-

     

    and now I look like this:-


    Wow! Even I am surprise at the outcome. Its not as bad as I thought I'd look in fringe. Still adjusting to looking at myself in this 'cute' look. How did JLo pull it off so well??

Tuesday, 02 November 2010

Sunday, 31 October 2010

  • by David Hong

    The day after Val's wedding  I made an appointment to meet up with my good ol' pal David for a 1 day photoshoot. I've never done something like this before but had always wanted to do (solo though) and never really had the guts to. So I thought, why not?

    The pictures turn out better than I expected. Not because I thougt David is crap but because I thought I just wouldn't look good in pictures and there were lots of thinggie biting me and I was so frust!! But all is worth it. I love nature background. Really rich colors. Wouldn't it be awesome if it was autumn and I could wear boots? Aahh.. Well enough talking, enjoy the pictures.



    If you wanna hire this photographer you can check out David Hong under my FB 
    More pics can be found in his album too!

  • as our life story continues to evolve

    One of the present I received for my 2005 birthday was a album, filled with memories. This book was made by Valerie & Anne. The back part of the book is filled with words from family & friends. Looking through the book brought tears.

    When someone ask you to write something about someone, you tend to write general stuff or stuff out of obligation. I was reading through some of the things that was written.. from my sister, to my best friends and some random friends. Some of it was describing me, or at least the person I use to be. One in particular said "u have shown such beauty from within n how u appreciate ppl around u n how genuine u r as a fren. you have demonstrated love in practival ways n never fail to be true to your heart n soul" perhaps she was just being nice to say those words.

    For most parts of my life I had believe in investing in friendship. Not to expect something in return, but hoping that the act would have made a difference in their life. I never wanted to be the 'in group' but notice ppl who wanted to feel belong or needed the company. Life was simpler when we were younger.

    Growing up, having more responsibilities, being in different parts of the world, chasing different dreams, getting attached and then married.. and well, everyone is having their own life stories. Everything has change. No doubt they say the internet makes the world smaller and easier to communicate, but nothing can compare to that human contact and the way to show sincere care and concern. Leaving a message on FB's wall or a poke or Messenger is just different. The other hard part is when an individual gets older, the expectation changes, and more often than not, it becomes greater.

    So what changed? Perhaps it me. Perhaps I am more self centred when I grow up. I say I dont expect anything in return, but really I am only human. There will also be this part of me wishing for respond. Perhaps my expectation is too high and disappointment drove me away? Maybe its just a series of wrong decisions in life?

    There is this nudge in my heart that I still wanna be able to have that connection with people. I don't know where to find the energy to keep it up. Helping (blessing) people has, or rather had always made me happy.


Friday, 01 October 2010

Sunday, 26 September 2010

  • Cheers to a new chapter in your lives

    Over the past 3 months, 3 girls who are close to my heart started a new chapter of their life. They exchange vows and said their 'I dos'. I'm glad that I was some where and some how involved in their special day.

    All the weddings were exceptionally beautiful and special. Very different style and very different atmosphere but really very pretty. I had so much fun at all the weddings! =) Its a blessing being your friend.

    Elaine & Cyrus


     

    Jeanette & John


     

    Valerie & Alex
     
    Cheers to Happy Endings!  

Thursday, 12 August 2010

Monday, 26 July 2010

  • Maybe that is what happens when a tornado meets a volcano

    Do people criticise other people so that they feel more superior about themselves? Tongue lashing, back stabbing or just the slight salt & pepper or chili padi

    Are we pretentious just because we want to be accepted by the deem esteem? Behavior, attitude, character, judgement or just talking with an accent.

    I find it so hard to be real, because I really don't know what is real anymore. I don't know which is the real me. Sometimes keeping quiet is best, because I just feel I don't belong and yet I don't want to say something I don't entirely believe in.

    Rejection comes down hard on me. I keep it in my heart and let it bleed over days. Slowly, it drives me insane.

    Sometimes I don't know if I want more friends or less friends. I can't change the amount or relatives so that stays put. I guess everyone was some what right about me. I have this anti-social LCLY